i checked weather.com today... it's going to get cold. and it's dark now at like 4:30 :( i miss the sun. i can feel myself going pale.
i've been thinking a lot lately. i'm not quite sure about what i just realize that a few hours later that my mind feels tired. so i must be thinking about something. of course there is a lot to think about these days. i think i need some change. last time i needed change i moved the furniture around my room, so i can't do that again. greg suggested i take a vacation, unfortunately my workaholic ways and desire to take a long vacation next yr are preventing me from doing so.
i want to go to taiwan, but that feeling is two fold. i like my relatives, but i like running around by myself too. maybe that's what i need a weekend away by myself. i'll have to look into that... of course now is so busy... :( well i guess if i want to do it i just have to make time :P
it's yet again one of "those" days... the kind where you can see that you have all this work to do and just don't want to do any of it. i usually just defer to doing the paperwork stuff, but I don't even want to do that today. i've managed to keep myself occupied and relatively productive though. i can always tell i'm busy at work when i haven't read cnn or any other news site all day. though today i did read some interesting articles... i can imagine having as much money as this girl... nor can i imagine getting money for pop-under ads...
at any rate, it's one of those days, but i still better get some work done. interesting thought for the day: how do you get rid of those little pockets of fat on your back? or am i the only one that has them? seriously, the only way i can think of is swimming, but swimming in the pool at the pro club frightens me just a little...
it has come to my attention that i've somehow travelled back in time to high school. or maybe even earlier... who knows? regardless, it seems that one cannot be friendly or be seen with someone of the opposite sex without somebody else assuming that they're dating or "something's going on." if i count how many people i'm dating by this criteria... wow i get around. i suppose it's the effect of people who don't know me very well. let's face it i'm a friendly person especially with my close friends.
i feel like i'm in a fish bowl. i never thought my life was that interesting, but apparently to some people it's worth talking about. i hate rumors. if they were the truth i could deal with it, but it's rumors, unsubstatianted ones at that. i want anonymity. i want to be able to go out to a club/bar wherever and just have a good time without having to worry about what will people think. i thought i could do that, but apparently i was wrong. because i apparently am back in the world of 16 yr. olds who think that rumors and gossip are necessary. i'm probably taking it too personally; i always have. i've just always felt like people who needed to do that kind of thing were just so out of touch with reality. i think i'll stick to down to earth ones and just give up ever going out again. i hardly think people will notice, i rarely go out anyways. but this pretty much seals it for me. i'm tired of it. i want to live my life in peace and not feel like i'm constantly under scrutiny.
a quirky thing about me: i will always consider food a free for all. you're more than welcome to take my food, and i will always assume that it's okay to take yours. that's the way i am. i grew up eating family style and i will pretty much always assume that family style eating is okay.
irwin more relaxed than i had ever previously seen him. yup folks i never thought it possible either, but get a few margaritas and a glass of wine in the man and wow. he looked like he had achieved enlightenment...
... well so my weekend was just incredibly busy. more than i personally like, but it was good seeing so many people. now if they could only just live close to each other instead of constantly being on different sides of lake washington. friday night i went to matt's birthday party which was fabulously fun! tons of guys (pretty much all guys) and one guy who hit on me, but i wasn't entirely sure. i had this clarified for me later. at any rate my headache all started at this point. before the party i went running for 10-15 mins and came back & showered. then i went to gerald's who drove to matt's. at matt's i had 1 mike's hard lemonade (the one that's red - i forget what it is) and very little of a fuzzy navel wine cooler. that's right folks a wine cooler :). anyways i get home around 1am or so and decide it's bedtime. i wake up around 9am to get to travis's to see the table & look at tablecloths/napkins. man did i have a headache. but after travis's i went to tom's to help him shop for more home furnishings. we parked at the bon marche parking garage which is no longer $5 on saturdays... oops. oh well so we walked down to the market and had brunch at Etta's seafood. i had chile relleno and two eggs (it was the special) with a cup of coffee. after brunch (at 2pm) we walked around some furniture stores and saw an awesome table at Kasala. i really like this table... i'm not sure if tom's decided on it yet. but i am seriously loving this table. anyways we walk around seattle some more including west lake center etc. eventually we end up at the bon marche again (bon macy's whatever) and we find some silverware it's a really nice set originally $240 going for $99 (service for 12).
after this we leave downtown seattle and end up back at uvillage since it's easier to park and shop here. then we picked up dinnerware for 8 at williams sonoma. it's fun spending other ppl's money :). we drop off dinnerware at tom's to get to marta's birthday party by 6pm. at marta's i notice my head is absolutely swirling... and i have to seriously excuse myself to go home. at this point i realize i haven't drank any water since approximately 6pm Friday... i drink some water on my way home from tom's place and start feeling a little better. then i end up at james jen's bbq around 8pm. where i collapse on the floor trying to drink more water and eat some food. matt and gerald are there too. it's always fun when matt's around. so i chat w/ some people there including a guy named bryan who works as a designer in games. around 11pm i decide to leave james's to go to irwin's who is having people over for margaritas and movies. at this point my headache is okay, but i can't even think of drinking any alcohol. at irwin's i find everyone watching van wilder (which i hadn't seen until then). a very amusing movie btw... i got a chance to catch up with eric who i hadn't had a chance to talk to in a long time... that was nice and then i ended up at home around 2am
i don't think i've been that busy since ... well never.
looks like impending rain... i wish it would just rain already. it's friday today and it's been one of those weeks. the kind where each day you wake up and ask yourself, what do i do for a living again? i mean seriously i can't have that many complaints right? and yet i can manage to complain for hours on end. it's a personal talent that i've cultivated to an art over the past 22 yrs. speaking of yrs. i'll be 23 soon. now that's freaky. i mean 21 was surreal, and 22 was just uneventful, but 23... that's half way between 20 and 25. i can't even begin to think of life at 25. most people >= 25 yrs. have started thinking about marriage and kids... not that i haven't. i mean yesterday i was online looking at engagement rings. (No i'm no where near that stage of my life, but after all these wedding things, i was just curious).
that brings me to another subject... engagement ring cost == 3 months salary?! seriously people i don't want to be wearing the cost of a car on my finger! that could be really dangerous. but does that mean i should feel bad if someone doesn't spend 3 months salary? at any rate, i've convinced myself that after a certain age if i have no engagement ring, i'm buying one myself. i mean seriously, why do i have to wait for some guy to give me one? if i want one can't i just get it myself? maybe i'll have some pitiful attempt like coax one of my guy friends to go to the store and get it for me, just so i can have the illusion :). yes i know i'm nuts. these things do seriously go through my mind...
i read michelle's blog yesterday about the sweater. i totally do the same things, maybe it's something to do w/ growing up in a place called Sugar Land. i haven't quite figured out if that's why i have issues these days... but i am obsessed with shopping though i don't do it in the same way most girls do. one habit i have picked up from michelle though is relating how i look in different outfits to vegetables, for example, one day in college michelle put on this shirt and said "i look like a mushroom in this shirt." and the other day i caught myself saying "i look like a squat mushroom in these shoes." amazing what i remember these days. i think i'm going senile.
So obviously high thread count is better, but now do you get sateen? pima cotton or egyptian cotton?
my personal fave is a sateen pima cotton. they feel really silky soft, but yes you do get that slip & slide feel in your bed. ah the memories of slip & slide :).
irwin & jason came over last night and we grilled. or attempted to rather. i forewarned irwin that the charcoal might have gotten wet, but we tried to light it anyways. finally jason got new charcoal & lighter fluid and everything was fine. lighter fluid smells bad. ivy likes fire (see what she does w/ those lighter stick thingees). well we did finally get everything cooked, a nice kobe beef flank steak, chicken curry sausage, and pork w/ walnuts & cranberry sausage (thx to irwin), as well as some bratwurst (me), zucchini and corn (jason). ivy provided moral support and her master skills with fire...
even though i had coffee earlier in the day (only half caffeine), i still managed to completely collapse at 1am. not so good considering i still had some work left, but it's still here today.
as everyone knows... i am obsessed with beds and bedding. so here's a question for you guys who read this: if you get a bigger bed, do you need more people to fill it?
and a more practical one: what is the best thread count?
personally, i'm thinking somewhere around 300-500 tc is good.