random thoughts in my head this morning: metrosexual, bitterness, jaded, kids, and skating.
metrosexual... does anyone consider themselves a metrosexual? i was trying to think about how many of my friends i would consider metrosexual, i could only really think of one, but he doesn't really pull off metrosexual, because it's not like he always cares about how he looks. a certain person i dated a couple years ago i'd characterize as metrosexual, but he's also been said to have "little man syndrome" - take that however you want. i think the question is if someone has metrosexual tendencies does that necessarily mean he is one? i mean i know people who have the tendencies, but if i were to see them on the street i wouldn't think that they had any of those tendencies.
bitterness - i've always been envious of those people that fell in love in high school, dated, and then married their high school sweetheart. i never really followed up on these people so they could be divorced by now for all i know, but in my mind these people are still together living perfect lives. i'd like to think that i haven't gotten so bitter about love, but you know sometimes i really question it. i tend to be so logical that if love were simply a calculation of how many kids you wanted, income potential, desired residence etc. i think it might be okay with me. however, that's not how it is, it seems the only solution is trial and error with intimate feelings involved. granted we take the lessons learned from each previous trial to the next trial, but it doesn't make each subsequent trial any less painful than the one before. hence bitterness starts to develop, founded in disappointment, betrayal, and failure. is there any way to stop the bitterness?
jaded i view jaded as the step that comes after bitterness. eventually the bitterness decides to cement itself and your personality becomes jaded. it's especially hard for the person you date after you get to this point. if he/she really wants to date you, he'll have to chisel through the jaded part and try to get you to see the good in the world again. it's not impossible, but i don't envy the person who takes on this endeavor. it can be very trying... and again what if it doesn't work out the bitterness starts all over again.
kids lately i've been thinking that i don't really want kids, but this morning i was playing with this baby and it makes me reconsider. i think it all comes down to if i settle down with someone and what they want, i.e. what we want together. i know i like being around kids, but i'm not sure that I want one myself.
skating going skating today despite only sleeping about 5-6 hrs. i hope i can last... might have to resort to coffee... mmm coffee.
one last thought... barenaked ladies... i really like their new album. maybe just because it's new and different than what i've been listening to...
Posted by joann at March 3, 2004 11:16 AMAm i the one? All my bay area friends think i am.
Posted by: Dennis at March 4, 2004 12:38 AMno you are not the one, though if i think about it you may be, but no not really... i wouldn't think so off hand anyways.
Posted by: joann at March 4, 2004 01:58 AM