Today I want to be surrounded by friends who love & cherish me. The ones who don't really care if I look or feel like crap, the ones who have stood by me for years even when I pushed them away. I want to stand in the middle and let the support & love they've given me over the years keep me up. I'm tired of standing on my own; I need to fall. I think I'm going through my mid-20s crisis a tad early, but then again everyone always said I am an old soul. Today is mid-year review day. I get to look back at what I've done over the last six months and ponder what I should do to improve myself. Introspection always depresses me. I feel like there should be more to life.
I talked with Adam this morning about moving and everything else. I'm so tempted. Maybe I'm simply yearning for change in my life and nothing more. Maybe I just want to shock myself into a completely different environment to see if I sink or swim.
Anyways my mind is now preoccupied with preparing for tomorrow. Anyone who's in town is more than welcome to stop by. We're just playing games starting at 8pm. I'm making lace cookies, chocolate truffle cake, and chocolate chip cookies (already made). (There's also leftover lemon bars from last week.) I need to pick up some Amaretto DiSaronno and sour mix, but I think those the only things I'm missing. Kevin's getting the rest of the stuff for Sangria. I'll probably start preparing afternoon tomorrow and it should all be done in time. It should be fun, though I'm not quite sure who's showing up at this point.
Posted by joann at February 13, 2004 10:12 AM