somewhat. i had a realization walking out to my car today that i am in a state of flux. you know the kind that prompts statements like "I can't believe how much I've changed." Suddenly I've become more... I'm not quite sure. Today I've almost come to accept the fact that I'm in a state like that when I was 12 yrs. old nothing fits exactly right... clothes are all too big or too small. Everything is sort of okay. Work, friends, life, etc. are all sort of okay.
Work though not as exciting as when I first started is still decent. Great manager, fun coworkers, etc. Now I just have to decide where I want my career to go that's the tough part.
I have great friends. They stick with me through all of my moods. They deal with me cancelling plans, spontaneously calling at 1am to go out, and my strange excitements over things like cooking utensils. Lots of them love to give me dating advice and most can keep up with my chattering.
Life is still busy. Not as busy as some that I've just met, but not totally quiet either. I think if I wanted to go out every night of the week, I could probably find stuff to do. Tuesdays is ballet class; Wednesdays volunteering at Hopelink. Maybe in February I'll start skating again on a regular basis. Possibly morning freestyles?
I'm going to Houston this weekend so that will get me out of the rain and gray for a little bit. Maybe it'll help improve my mood so things will be great and not just okay. <- Look Justin - optimism!
Posted by joann at January 22, 2004 11:44 PM