i'm really liking the lyrics in the song My Immortal:
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
...
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
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Yes I'm still adjusting to single life. Doing things on my own without being able to depend on someone else. I know I have tons of friends who are willing to help me, but I feel like I need to stand on my own two feet right now. I'm not sure why. I think that I still feel lost at the moment. I remember my former self and now I feel like a shell. I remember specific attributes and I'm reminded by old friends of how I used to be, but I just don't feel like that is who I am right now. In fact I don't know who I am anymore. I know I care immensely ... too much for my own good. I let things bother me; I empathize. And yet right now I cannot feel. I'm completely numb to everything. I care without feeling.